Memories and Moments

I handled my first night alone. It was a tiring day full of many activities. Jenn and I attended church with Will, Cody and mom. My church baby, Morgan, was there with his mom, Jessica. It was a nice day - we had a fellow church member speak - Jeremy did a great job. The music was enlightening - it was all about kids! It was the kick-off of planning for the church's Bible School the last week of July. We made it home by 12:30 p.m. Jenn and I grabbed a bite to eat and then left for the airport in Pittsburgh.

We had a nice talk on the way to the airport - lots of Todd Memories and Moments from the last few weeks. Little things come back to me and bursts of laughter or tears are the result. I miss him so much - our pillow talks, looking out at our wildlife and flowers and trees, enjoying our coffee on the porch in the mornings, discussing the plans for the day - it all seems like it could still be enjoyed but they are all just lingering memories now. I will cherish our last moments together. I don't want to forget watching the pulse in his neck finally stopping - that is the moment he met Jesus. I don't want to forget the very heavy pain in my heart as I cried and stroked his arm, chest and face - he fought a good fight but now he is where he knew he would always be - heaven is his home now and he is a happy man.

I will be okay; I have many, many friends and family waiting to catch me if I fall. I have plenty of tissues to wipe my eyes and my grieving must take its course. I just really miss him; my friend, my husband, my life!